So, I'm watching Harry Potter with Boyfriend, and I wonder ...
When do I stop being "fat"? Is it at my goal weight? When I hit a certain size? BMI? Percentage of body fat?
I'm 20+lbs lighter, and feel like I look a lot skinnier around my middle, but I still FEEL just as fat as I did at 214. Mentally, I'm still 214. I'm in awe when old clothes don't fit, or I can wear a size 14.
I think it's because I've been big since puberty (hello? PCOS sign? I think so). I've always identified myself as a "big girl" and I've always been ashamed of it. Starting this blog was hard for that reason. Typing "fat" is hard. There's a lot of baggage that goes along with that honesty.
So, when do I get to say I'm not fat anymore? I know there's no right answer, but what do y'all think?
4 months ago